Are human beings really like swans and intended to mate for life? Mulling over the way attitudes towards the nuclear family have changed and can't decide yay or ney.
Well was supposed to see my doctor yesterday but sadly he has had a family bereavement so that was cancelled, and then was supposed to go to the hospital today but our village is under six inches of snow so that was scuppered, so am well and truly confined to barracks. Then my dear buddy from work was going to take me to a carol concert in Windsor this evening but that's obviously off the agenda now. Best laid plans. The walls are marching in and cabin fever has arrived.
On a serious note the condition on the roads is treacherous and the M40 is closed because of yet another horrendous accident. R intent on going out tonight though.
Wonder if Afghanistan is snow-bound and thoughts turn to being exposed to freezing cold weather as well as all the other awfulness. Must send some thermal underwear out in the next parcel. Can't settle to anything today, am a human butterfly flitting about from one plant to the next, or in my case one unfinished task after another. Rang work this morning and as ever am overwhelmed by the messages of support and best wishes - just like they say it makes the most enormous difference when people show they genuinely care.
Fellow soldier's mum very down and finding this time very difficult too.
Received a lovely card through the post from my aunt and uncle today, always enjoy speaking to them as the connections with family are always special, it's that sense of belonging. Got this yearning to go back to childhood and a time when things seemed so safe and secure. Quite illogical I know.
R has just rung home and asked "Mum, can you like, run me a bath please - like not one too shallow or like too hot just like a normal one", actually glad to have the discipline of a set of instructions to follow.
Walked into the village yesterday evening and went into the gift shop and there standing in front of me was C's gorgeous girlfriend. She's just started work and had just got back from uni. We hugged each other and then discussed C and how it was all going. She'd been lucky enough to speak to him the day before and she thought he sounded OK but suspected he was homesick, then she said how much she missed him and how she was also feeling detached from normality. So much unquantified sorrow.
No news from Afghanistan so hope and pray all is well. Not heard from H so presume skiing living up to expectation and R has just had the dutifully drawn bath.
Want to feel eighteen again.
Speak soon. A soldier's Mum x
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